myboys’ blog

Hello bloggers, I am still here. I was doing updates last year on my friend
Moncia, who was battling cancer for all she was worth. I figured I would
share with you guys, that she passed away last night, surrounded by her
family and friends.

Someone told me today, that they thought it was just so unfair that this
happened to Monica. She always had a big smile on her face, even through the
rough times.....That person said "I could think of so many people who were
more deserving than her.."

I dont know if I feel that way, because I dont want to wish sickness on
anyone, but that saying "the good die young" has never been more true to me
than it is now.

Please say a prayer for her family and her close friends, so many people
loved her and were touched by her, RIP Monica...

Ok, so hello, I've been out of commission with the blogging thing since
February. Mainly because I have had so much going on, here is a summary:
- Carson is running wild! Into everything, throwing fits, talking, babble
babble babble.....
- Jameson is so busy with sports and school that all we do is collapse and
try to do it again each day when we get home!
- Hubby has been out of town for weeks at a time at various schools this
year
- Our chocolate lab is preggers, our yellow lab knocked her up, she is due
in a few weeks. Puppies anyone? They will be adorable and FREE! (yes, we're
irresponsible pet owners) but, we have always kept them separate, to be
honest, one of the kids let them out when she went into heat. So, SUE US! It
is the circle of life, that is what happens.... at least we'll place the
puppies in good homes, no breeding here!
- I have been working alot, a whole bunch of after hours events, meetings
and functions
- My boss is retiring after 30 years
- My new boss in our in house attorney and I am so excited about working
under him
- Politics politics politics everywhere I go......getting old, that is all I
can say about that
and the BIG BIG NEWS!
Hubby and I have ordered house plans and have been working with a
contractor. Hopefully the bank process will not be as painful as it is
beginning to sound, but with the market where it is, banks are really
reluctant to lend. Our home is very conservative/traditional with a little
colonial flavor too! I am so excited about it, but terrified all at the same
time. One of these days I hope to be blogging pics of the construction
process, but for now, I'll be hammering it out with the banks.

So, maybe now I have a good excuse for being absent. I am glad to see you
guys are all alive and well!
Hope your little ones are bringing you as much joy as mine bring me!

So I need some therapy, shoot me....

Life has been so full of randomness lately, I don't know where to begin...

-My dear cousin Cyndee passed away a couple of weekends ago. She had lung
cancer. Cyndee was 40 something (young), she never married but did adopt a
baby. That baby, Shelby is now 11, and very sad about the loss of her mom,
of course. Cyndee died the Saturday after Valentines day. Cyndee's goal was
to live for V-day so she could do something special for Shelby. Cyndee's
friend was taking Shelby to school during those days because Cyndee was so
ill, Hospice was already coming to the house daily, so, on Valentines day,
the friend told Shelby her car was not working but someone would pick them
up to get her to school ASAP. Shelby looks out the window to find a white
stretch limo outside, and inside was her dear mother, Cyndee, who took off
the oxygen and tubes long enough to take her daughter out to eat pancakes at
the Original House of Pancakes for breakfast before school. This was her
Valentine gift to Shelby. That afternoon Cyndee was moved into a Hospice
house and Cyndee died two days later. At 11 years old, Shelby cannot fathom
what a sacrifice it was for her mother to literally suffocate for hours so
that she could create a special memory that Shelby will always treasure. She
truly was living up until the end. What a beautiful picture of a wonderful
person, that will be missed by all! RIP Cyndee!

- I quit smoking. I have been a closet smoker for the past 3+ years. But I
have smoked off and on for 10+ years. I realized when I saw the sadness in
Shelby's eyes, that I could not do that to my boys, so I have thrown away
the smokes for good. I am using Nicorette gum and I have been 100%
successful, with no cheating, or cravings. I do not plan on turning back.
This is so much easier now that I have a reason to fight the addiction of
nicotine. You all may remember me telling of a friend of mine that also has
lung cancer, she is 20 something, all the more reason for me to stop killing
myself.

- Carson moved up to the "toddler" class at daycare. And of course, as my
luck would have it, the week that he moves up, so do their rates. We are now
paying more for the toddler class than I was for him in the infant/newborn
class. Thanks folks, really appreciate that, I should have bent over to make
that one easier!

- My female problem is all but a memory, but I do have a lingering question
about next month's cycle. If it is bad, they may remove the IUD....will I
try or try not to get pregnant.....THAT IS THE QUESTION

So many other things of randomness, but I have a ton of work to do and my
sanity break is now over. Until next time!

Thanks for all the prayers and well wishes. My labs all came back clear
Praise GOD!. The Dr. says this is the beginning of endometriosis (sp?) and
my only concern for now, should be whether I want anymore children, because
the clock has started ticking for the big surgery (hysterectomy). One worry
to another, but thank GOD that it was nothing severe right now!
Endometriosis does have to be addressed, cant go forever hurting.

Thanks again ladies! Have a great weekend!

will you say a little prayer for me.
I started having pains in my "female region" on Sunday and it got worse. I
ignored it Mon-Tues thinking it was PMS related. So I go to the Dr yesterday
after realizing the pain is in my IUD area.....He does an ultrasound and
says IUD is in place does not see any problems with it. He tells me that I
have several small cysts but nothing big enough to cause me so much pain. He
did labs and blood work and was mostly concerned that the pain is in my
cervix. He said it could be an IUD problem, etopic or other pregnancy,
cervical who knows, but hopefully some light will be shed today.
My mind is racing of all the "what ifs" My mom had endometriosis, and she
thinks that is what I have, that would mean a historectomy in my future.
I go back tomorrow, but hopefully they'll call today with lab results. I've
already put in my morning call reminding them that I need to know.
Just worrying as usual about something

On Monday, Carson will be celebrating his first birthday! WOW! Has a year
come and gone already? He sure has come a LONG way in one year!

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I bought these boots, got them 60% off, but they 1 1/2 sizes too small
(didnt have my size) and my feet HURT! I know I'm such an idiot! But arent
they the cutest hooker boots ever?

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*I had a bad nightmare a few nights ago that shook me up, not going
into details, but in the dream, I died...*
*so I have been doing some soul searching and praying, and decided to stop
watching so many scary movies and reality TV. Then this am, this is in my
daily email devotional:*

What will your life accomplish? "You have decided the length of our lives.
You know how many months we will live and we are not given a minute longer.
*Job 14:5 NLT*"
*Then I open up my baby center daily email and this is the topic:*

*Hi Susanne! Have you written a will,* or updated it since Carson was born?
According to Consumer Reports, 70 percent of Americans don't have a last
will and testament. As difficult as the conversation may be, it's very
important to talk with Rob and decide who you would like to raise Carson and
any other children you have in the event that something happened to both of
you.

*I am totally freaked out! I try not to dwell on these things, but it is all
up in my face! I pray often that I live long to be here for my children, is
that so wrong?Do other people do that? Or is it just the normal worries of
every parent?*

Sorry, I'm still making fun of the guy who ad libs every sentence
with, "and stuff like that"... I find it so distracting, "and all and
everything", sometimes you want to shake him, "and all"; and say STOP
IT "and stuff like that,and all"...LOL
Ok, got it out my system.

I hope this blog finds all of you doing well. I am running on about 3
hours sleep. Carson kept having a bad dream last night and I could not
sleep listening to him snub in the baby monitor. So I kept waking him
up, and then he would go directly back into the dream and start sleep
crying. It was pitiful, all of the commotion woke Jameson up and we
then did about a 5 hour session of musical beds....Fun times, "and all
and everything"...

We have family pictures tomorrow. I'll post them as soon as they are
ready. I don't like to smile very much for pictures because I have yet
to hold the fundraiser for the $5,000+ dental work that would make me
less self conscious about my grill, so I can only imagine how stone
faced I'm going to appear."stuff like that"

My mother gave me a total guilt trip because I have not taken Carson
for "formal" pictures yet. I know, slap me, I'm a bad mother. Jameson
went about once a month when he was born and poor Carson has not had a
session yet. That is totally the second child syndrome and I was a
tried and true sufferer of that as a little girl, but I was even worse
than that, I was the MIDDLE CHILD of 4!!! So I really was the reject.

There is so much I could vent about but I'll stop for now.

So we went to a "Trunk or Treat" tonight at my church, and the boy's broke
in their costumes. Of course, Jameson had to tone down this costume for
church, he is going to be "something scary" when we go trick-or-treating
Wednesday night. I thought I would share these.

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