So I need some therapy, shoot me....
Life has been so full of randomness lately, I don't know where to begin...
-My dear cousin Cyndee passed away a couple of weekends ago. She had lung
cancer. Cyndee was 40 something (young), she never married but did adopt a
baby. That baby, Shelby is now 11, and very sad about the loss of her mom,
of course. Cyndee died the Saturday after Valentines day. Cyndee's goal was
to live for V-day so she could do something special for Shelby. Cyndee's
friend was taking Shelby to school during those days because Cyndee was so
ill, Hospice was already coming to the house daily, so, on Valentines day,
the friend told Shelby her car was not working but someone would pick them
up to get her to school ASAP. Shelby looks out the window to find a white
stretch limo outside, and inside was her dear mother, Cyndee, who took off
the oxygen and tubes long enough to take her daughter out to eat pancakes at
the Original House of Pancakes for breakfast before school. This was her
Valentine gift to Shelby. That afternoon Cyndee was moved into a Hospice
house and Cyndee died two days later. At 11 years old, Shelby cannot fathom
what a sacrifice it was for her mother to literally suffocate for hours so
that she could create a special memory that Shelby will always treasure. She
truly was living up until the end. What a beautiful picture of a wonderful
person, that will be missed by all! RIP Cyndee!
- I quit smoking. I have been a closet smoker for the past 3+ years. But I
have smoked off and on for 10+ years. I realized when I saw the sadness in
Shelby's eyes, that I could not do that to my boys, so I have thrown away
the smokes for good. I am using Nicorette gum and I have been 100%
successful, with no cheating, or cravings. I do not plan on turning back.
This is so much easier now that I have a reason to fight the addiction of
nicotine. You all may remember me telling of a friend of mine that also has
lung cancer, she is 20 something, all the more reason for me to stop killing
myself.
- Carson moved up to the "toddler" class at daycare. And of course, as my
luck would have it, the week that he moves up, so do their rates. We are now
paying more for the toddler class than I was for him in the infant/newborn
class. Thanks folks, really appreciate that, I should have bent over to make
that one easier!
- My female problem is all but a memory, but I do have a lingering question
about next month's cycle. If it is bad, they may remove the IUD....will I
try or try not to get pregnant.....THAT IS THE QUESTION
So many other things of randomness, but I have a ton of work to do and my
sanity break is now over. Until next time!
Thanks for all the prayers and well wishes. My labs all came back clear
Praise GOD!. The Dr. says this is the beginning of endometriosis (sp?) and
my only concern for now, should be whether I want anymore children, because
the clock has started ticking for the big surgery (hysterectomy). One worry
to another, but thank GOD that it was nothing severe right now!
Endometriosis does have to be addressed, cant go forever hurting.
Thanks again ladies! Have a great weekend!
will you say a little prayer for me.
I started having pains in my "female region" on Sunday and it got worse. I
ignored it Mon-Tues thinking it was PMS related. So I go to the Dr yesterday
after realizing the pain is in my IUD area.....He does an ultrasound and
says IUD is in place does not see any problems with it. He tells me that I
have several small cysts but nothing big enough to cause me so much pain. He
did labs and blood work and was mostly concerned that the pain is in my
cervix. He said it could be an IUD problem, etopic or other pregnancy,
cervical who knows, but hopefully some light will be shed today.
My mind is racing of all the "what ifs" My mom had endometriosis, and she
thinks that is what I have, that would mean a historectomy in my future.
I go back tomorrow, but hopefully they'll call today with lab results. I've
already put in my morning call reminding them that I need to know.
Just worrying as usual about something
